Understanding the dominative capacity of the human ego is a very important undertaking for any would be magician to pursue. Getting to the source of many problems, whether they be physical, energetic, mental, or otherwise, and therefore to the root of many holistic solutions is a consequence of continually striving to understand the origins, effects, and applications of the human ego. In my previous post, I discussed the implications of gender specific applications in ego magic, but today I am aiming to dive deeper into the more general concept of the ego and what it is, technically, specifically, canonically, etc., but also what I believe to be the representative implications within human macro history, as well as esoterica explored through some choice images from the reliably archetypal major arcana in part two. Luckily, I am feeling very sparse at the moment, so the reader will be spared the horribly self indulgent and off color introductory paragraph that usually come along with my posts… as is my ironic style, I will be forgoing the ego indulgence in the actual ego deep dive… And of course please remember that this is a Squeaky Table article which means it is not distinctly representative of the sources employed, and is inherently up for debate, critique… unique opinions and takeaways by readers on these highly subjective matters are the primary reason for its existence. Also, I did want to note, given the divisive state of the current social meta, I felt it worth mentioning that my previous post on gendered magic is meant to be interpreted in terms of energetic composition and strictly hermetic variables, rather than actual biological physical parts. Men can be Empress’, women can be Paladins, and anyone can be any combination of Empress, Paladin, or Nonbinary. A persons energetic strengths are determined by far more than assigned gender, and can vary wildly person to person based on a number of esoteric and psychological factors, including, you guessed it, ego concentration. Yeah, okay right, that being said, I’m just gonna get straight into this.
Ego is defined as such by the likes of dictionary.com:
- the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought.
- Psychoanalysis. the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment.
- egotism; conceit; self-importance:
- self-esteem or self-image; feelings:
- Philosophy. the enduring and conscious element that knows experience.
- Scholasticism. the complete person comprising both body and soul.
Some additional important terms to look at and consider consistently in relation to ego are that of “id” and “superego” which are defined as such also by the likes of old dictionary.com:
Id: noun Psychoanalysis.
the part of the psyche, residing in the unconscious, that is the source of instinctive impulses that seek satisfaction in accordance with the pleasure principle and are modified by the ego and the superego before they are given overt expression.
Superego: noun, plural Psychoanalysis.
the part of the personality representing the conscience, formed in early life by internalization of the standards of parents and other models of behavior.
Cumulatively, ego is the human capacity for self awareness. The id comprises the innate biological aspects of the human personality, such as those dealing with sleep, breath, sex, food, hunger, and other pleasure seeking compulsions such as abusing drugs or alcohol, including possible extremities such as detrimental fixations, obsessions, mental illnesses and disorders, including sexual ones such as nymphomania, or polyphagia. The superego is a lens of internalized bias and perspective that is formed as a result of early and sustained socialization, or lack thereof, and wherein the consequential perversions toward certain aspects of the id or ego are formed, established, and prioritized to be continuously referenced by the ego and therefore to inform the actions and lifestyle of a given person. Together, these three concepts are considered to be the primary components of the personality makeup for any given individual. I find it worth noting the repetition of the figure three in regards to ego magic and ego as it is considered canon in psychology. Just as there are three gendered components of ego magic, there are similarly three components to ego psychology. While this is just a theory, I believe there is at least something to be said for the way in which the three gendered magic classes have their direct parallels in psychology. Id is the component of the personality that is compulsory, innate, intuitive, and constant throughout nature. Our id is most directly tied to our natural cycles and similarities to other non human lifeforms, and it is the vehicle in which undeniable biological limits and realities are delivered to the psyche. In the same way, female magic is all about bending to and enduring hard natural or social limits through means of long term and often voluntary passivity and sycophancy; the id will easily take the backseat to ego or superego when balanced properly, as general ‘civilized’ human social structure dictates that interpersonal awareness (represented intrapersonally as superego) is marginally more important than blindly giving into compulsive animal instincts without restraint, and sometimes even that the two are significantly and integrally tied to another for balance and mutual satisfaction. Female magicians of the maiden-mother-crone variety tend to represent carnal temptations of the flesh through oral, sexual, and familial manipulation, so often confronting male counterparts with the momentarily satisfying but overall taxing indulgence of id (whether in terms of addiction, gluttony or sexual fixation, or perhaps blackmail of a similar degree, lmao, did someone say ‘alimony’?), over superego or ego socially minded tendencies, creating a deeply seated, often generationally reflective codependence of sorts on female or otherwise Empress centric, cooks, maids, wives, mothers, weavers, whores, virgins, and miscellaneous matriarchs such as priestesses and madams for relatively socially acceptable satisfaction of the needs and cravings of the id. The roles of these Empress magicians is to manipulatively utilize inherent id and biological compulsions present in their male or palladian counterparts, adversaries and party members alike, as it were, to exert some degree of control over their collective lives, and to ensure that the mentally violent, physically violent, or sexually violent and other significantly dominative tendencies of men around them can have an outlet that is not detrimental or intrusive to the social scape at large; rather just select individual sycophants take this upon themselves, sometimes happily, willingly, or unknowingly, sometimes stoically and under duress.
On the flip side, the superego can be matched up to the archetype of the light spreading paladin. The superego is like a clay tablet that collects the earliest detailed social evidences and patterns impressed upon an individual through developmental and other important stages of life. Along with an iteration of stasis, unusually good things and unusually bad or straight up traumatic things that are experienced early in life will end up inscribed upon a person’s superego for their entire lives, and these experiences and evaluations are responsible for the creation of a unique and defining bias framework within an individual. If the person has a relatively balanced, happy, and well adjusted childhood, their superego will reflect this, and they ought to be fairly balanced and well adjusted throughout life until sanded down of course by the inevitably harsh nature of the world, that is unless they were born under a lucky star, as it were. If a person has a less than happy, unstable, or traumatic childhood, it is these details that will inform their lifestyle later on until they are given the opportunity to change or confront these engrams through therapeutic means or through trial or ordeal. Sometimes the inverse occurs, and a well adjusted childhood can produce an arrogant and privileged individual who never learns or takes adequate responsibility; likewise, an unhappy childhood can inspire one to be the opposite and build a life that is built on continuous improvement and humility. Sometimes a single traumatic event can throw off an entire childhood of balance, and vice versa. It’s all a roll of the dice; being born is a roll of the dice, and living, especially as a child with little control over circumstances is equally fraught with pitfalls and therefore represent plenty opportunities for initial impressions of social aspects of environment, life, and humanity. It is my belief that not only does this subconscious impression happen within the minds of individual people, but it too has notable social applications. The social consciousness developed parallel to the individual consciousness, so, to me at least, it stands to reason that all of humanity shares certain superego social impressions, that we receive in the starter pack when born into the human main. Innate ethical framework, such as knowing the difference between right and wrong, having a certain level of empathetic and sympathetic ability; these traits are expected in modern humans from childhood, and lacking these traits is grounds for legitimate diagnosis. It is my belief that these traits and others are part of the human wide superego, the collective consciousness if you will. Superego and conscience development is not well understood, even by experts, despite having such a grave and tangible effect on individual personality and lifestyle, and the overall state of humanity. However, it can be safely assumed that early id data consumption plays a significant role in how a superego is calibrated. For example, the way in which ones parents provide attention, discipline, affection and sustenance informs the social applications made by superego tremendously, meaning id and superego have somewhat of a symbiotic relationship, just like is represented in the Devil card in my previous post. Likewise, the inexplicable avenues of Paladin magic are all about bringing and sustaining things like freedom, light, and liberation to anyone who appears trapped by bondage, darkness, or slavery. Similarly, Paladin magic is a gamble. Any well adjusted person who understands the colorful complexity of human social scapes would see this as a hole in Palladian magic right off the bat… life is relative to perspective, and there is a lot more to human social interaction than blind justice or necessarily dual ethics. If Paladin magic is practiced with respect and discernment for circumstantial and environmental realities, it can be effective on a personal scale, but otherwise it is highly impractical, as the possibility for misunderstandings and vigilante tactics backfiring immensely is always very pressing and real. In the same way, the contents or impressions of the superego can have a similarly inadvertently adverse effect on lifestyle or decision making when looked at as a component of psychology. The extreme and often overtly childish sentiments formed and found within the superego can serve as a platform from which to be effective and socially aware, or they can serve as means to be the exact opposite. The superego is one with bias, and therefore overall social and lifestyle mission, whether consciously acknowledged or not. Our paladin is the same, as his consistent mission to bring enlightenment is highly relative and can be misinterpreted horribly in certain situations.
Finally we have the ego, who combines the id, superego, and the raw data of the environment to be the closest thing to identity, confidence and self awareness that we have as human beings. I associate ego with nondual magic, as the ego brings together the id and superego, so does non binarism bring together the male and the female as a demonstration of efficient symbiosis. If id and superego represent extreme polar ends of psychology, then the ego is the balancing filter that makes these intense concepts palatable and applicable to discerning and interacting with the many facets of existence in a static reality. Following this logic, it stands to reason that male and female ought to be interpreted as extreme polar opposites in both environmental nature and human nature, meaning within ego applications, making ritual non binarism the vehicle in which these extremes can be made socially palatable and applicable, such as through ethical and moral structures, which attempt to account for and accommodate certain psychological and biological realities, ideally in a balanced and socially just manner. This is why, ostensibly, governments and religious schools are usually associated with secret societies and are considered as having occult knowledge and ties that surpass that of the general public, as it is a matter of ego concentration. It is through the practice of ritual non binarism within organized religion, and economy and government to fluctuating extent, that the ego begins to take on a distinctly social role, and it is a large part of why irresponsible social hierophancy pervades our world today.
At the end of the day, I’m no biologist, so I can’t say exactly what it is that makes humans so fundamentally different from other animals. Our specific number of chromosomes seems to be an important variable, but look , I’m not a fucking scientist. What do you people want from me? I can only go through how it may have went down. In a broad way, this is how I believe the human race began the process of becoming a majority social creature rather than a majority natural creature, or how animals became people, as it were. This scenario I believe quantifiably illustrates the process through which humanity came to know its own ego. I don’t just mean one person did this and started the whole trend, straight line domino effect style, no. Many people did this. Nearly everyone I’d imagine, in all sorts of places. And after a while, they’d all begin to speak about it, and perhaps things snowballed from there in each party, in each case.
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I’ve alluded to the importance of reflection and mirrors as vehicles for developing ego and I will now expound upon this idea in a macro historical sense. This issue always comes down to a central, albeit cliché starting query: ‘what makes humans different from other animals?’. There are several acceptable answers that apply to all types and subcategories of humanity, transcending such variables as race, geography, culture, and technological, economical, political, or miscellaneous structural development. Variables such as language, storytelling, and literature, tattoos and art, clothing and adornment, metallurgy, weaponry, warfare, diplomacy, and other stark components of society. Now, what do all these things have in common (apart from the enochian and nephilim aspects, lol, we’re not doing all that right now), that make them significantly human? Well obviously this question is unanswerable and insurmountable for a reason; we can’t very well go back and see exactly how events and consequences transpired to produce the present reality, but I can speculate on a general basis, to reconstruct a rough outline of the process in which egocentric social patterns developed (and continue to develop) for humanity and not within other animals… I mean, humans truly, really are technically just animals at the end of the day. As a species, in our early formative years we struggled the same as any other animals for basic survival, and it was ultimately the gradual shift into the Neolithic that substantially marks the end of the human animal and the beginning of the human person. Again, this initial shift from nomadic hunter gathering to stationary farming and centralized social civilization was very gradual, starting in the Levant and the local middle east and Asia minor, and took centuries to reach all corners of the globe. The Neolithic was a transitional period, and even far after the canon ending of the Neolithic Revolution proper, many cultural groups continued on with traditional hunter-gatherer social strategies and play styles, and some shunned the idea of monarchs, centralization, and settlements altogether. But as we can safely say viewing with the lens of hindsight, there was and is no escaping the reach of civilization. These remaining nomadic groups were slowly, sometimes quickly, absorbed or violently coerced into accepting this as the norm. But how did it all begin?
I imagine it went something like this: To all human beings, but especially those residing in harsh, arid climates such as deserts, arctic areas, the nominal ‘badlands’ as it were, with our focus today being the Levant or perhaps Northern Africa, in this case, natural symbols are of the utmost importance; they are certainly to be fixated upon in most if not all circumstances. Being able to discern a valuable symbol indicating a food or water source in a harsh climate like those mentioned could mean the difference between feast and famine, dying of thirst or getting your fill. It’s common knowledge that humankind, the human brain, has an inexplicable capacity for puzzle and problem solving. As a species, we thrive off of connecting environmental symbols and fixations, and it stands to reason that this ability would be amplified in extreme places like the birthplace of men and the cradle of civilization, where humans would be subject to increased environmental duress. Everything you see could potentially be important, and while yes, this does apply to all lifeforms, humans are exceptional in that we recognize that to be the reality. Whereas other animals rely solely on built in biological variables inborn instinctual behaviors (such as camouflage, attack maneuvers, rudimentary social impulses, etc.) to avoid threats and get on within the meta, human beings instead have the ability to situationally adapt in order to account for potential gains and threats and then preemptively, strategically utilize any reasonable means at their disposal to minimize personal damages and maximize returns. Sustainably, in the wild, this strategy is spot on; it allows our species to survive wide scale and traumatic hard times, and thrive to a fault in suitable conditions, as further and further tapping into this spec has an exponential effect. There is no way to fully know and utilize the power of the human brain and to be truly sustainable, especially on a mass scale.
The mirrors helped too, I believe they were the real catalyst; the strangest thing is that reflections first occurred totally organically. Imagine a young human girl, (could just as well be a young boy, but I went girl here), so long long ago, before the first age of civilization, before writing, farming, standardization, when humans were still largely inseparable from the animals, except perhaps in our rapidly advanced social structure. Say we’re some place near the cradle of civilization; it is hot, dry, and scarce. Our girls’ days are simply tedium and survival. Helping the older women gather, cook, process all manner of vessels, tools, and coverings, knowing that will be her role one day as well. Otherwise, she is running about, playing with the other children of the group, staying near camp to avoid predators and threats. That is her primary focus, food and threats. And of course, water. One day she is walking about in her free time, and she comes across a small pond of clear water. On the dusty ground, it appears to sparkle and shine as the light hits it. She decides to sit by the still water, to splash some water on her hot face. Before her hands can ripple the still surface, she catches her own reflection; she is suddenly taken by it. She gazes, and gazes more, finding herself infatuated with the image of her own face, so tender and symmetrical, with bright eyes, high cheeks, framed by long and wild hair. The more she stares, the more she understands. I’m sure many of us have had similar experiences, usually under the influence, of gazing at our reflection with a combination of novelty and disgust.. Think how this girl must have felt then, truly seeing herself for the first time, initially forming an opinion of the image staring back, how odd it must’ve been to be momentarily removed from the otherwise permanent first person point of view. Especially if we’re still placed in the dry climate of the middle east, the water itself is something significant, something to worship and fixate upon; and it so often stares back at you, fixating into your own eyes with the same intensity of your very will to survive. Viewing one’s reflection must have been such a profound and even fundamental experience for these early human mains whose lives predated ego normalcy. The reflection of the girl begs many points, and though they flood her brain and soul all at once, she is mostly consumed by knowing. This knowing is she, this is herself, this is her ego being activated, making itself known, separating itself from the environment. When she smiles, the water smiles. When she frowns, the water frowns. When she sticks her tongue out, so does the water. In everything, the harsh ecosystem reality, she inexplicably has some sort of control. This is she, appearing to me in nature, and I control she. In whatever terms these humans would have uttered, she’d get some inner confirmation of the above sentiment. In the most basic way, she appears in the water, she controls herself, and the leap that she controls the water takes root within her, in an abstract way. The girl winks her eyes back and forth to prove it is so, and after staring for long enough, she begins testing the accuracy of the reflection again, wiping dirt on her face, playing with her hair, poking and pulling at her skin. The reflection copies every single movement to a tee, it fascinates her endlessly, she could do this for hours. She is called back to the camp before long, to face another day of gathering and preparing supplies and food, avoiding threats, giving up control, and she already feels herself longing for when she will be permitted to behold herself, and allowed to manipulate reality once more through her reflection. This is how I imagine the childish beginnings of ego began within humanity. This scenario, taking place all over time and space on earth, as humans spread and develop.
She is not alone though, at every point in ancient history, nearly any given human being has had to have knelt beside still water to drink and refresh, only to be met with who else but themselves. The more people began to fixate on this, the more likely they were to share these thoughts with the other members of their party, and this effect would have been streamlined within parties. Continued conversation during social interactions, meals and water cooler moments, as it were, on the topic of how one appears in their reflection would further develop the connection between drinking, ego, and community. Survival and reflection were, to some extent, synonymous. To drink, gaze upon yourself. Regardless of the applicable accuracy or lack thereof in my particular example, it is pretty apparent that these two symbols became intrinsically linked in some highly significant way, and it is not a stretch in logic to assume water played a huge role in establishing this, as still water is the most common organically occurring mirror. For most of ancient history, only the wealthy and privileged had actual mirror objects, polished obsidian mainly, which further proves my point that social evolution is one with ego, as ego concentration determines social prowess. But even those who did not have mirrors could rely on still water for a glance every now and again, a little self reflection. Making sense yet? For humanity, ego, survival, and social community are reflections of the same idea. They go hand in hand. They promote one another. Further, it warrants noting that all early and most contemporary settlements are water based and water centric. Mesopotamia, Egypt, Indus Valley, and I could go on. These pivotal first settlements and those that came after them deepen the inherent connections humanity makes between water, ego, social growth, and technological development.
Happy-go-lucky metaphor aside, please do not forget the importance of mirror mechanics as we go forward. Reflections are, always and without exception, backwards, and I believe this goes for every level of reflection. If static reality is our starting state, then the mirror reflection of static reality is backwards from the physical reality, and further, the social reflection (i.e. speaking and writing about existing from an egocentric or ego aware point of view) is yet another reflection, meaning it should be parallel to the starting static state, and free of notable perversion. However! Social development is asymmetrical in the ways it appears in static and fluid reality. Ideas, languages, symbols, economic, and political structures- these dominative and invasive manifestations of social growth are the antithesis of nature, while still actively, if perversely, existing in, reflecting, and having sprung from nature to begin with. It stands to reason, as these developments are, through the view I set forth, two times removed from static reality. There is another notable schism with social development that further muddies the waters (no pun intended) of analyzing ego evolution: vocal language versus written language. It goes without saying, but I’ll say it. Speaking is one social manner, while writing and drawing are quite another. Water and mirrors do not reflect sound in the way they reflect light and image, so rudimentary social developments such as speech and other sounds are not subject to this same mirror reflection principle. This is confirmed as well by the fact that there are many non human animals that utilize sound communication. Writing and other asymmetrical printed symbols however, well as I’ve said, will always appear backward in a reflection. Prehistoric humans, prior to standardized writing, and predating even very early symbols and drawings, surely had some understanding of the importance of reflections, but without some sort of standardized writing or symbols, they would not have the extra perspective of knowing the effect of reverse perversion, as most everything which is naturally occurring appears identically to the way it does when viewed in a reflection, including human faces. That is until they became aware of the reflection principle by noting how their writing and drawing appeared backwards in all reflections. The reverse effect was obviously still in play in these prehistoric, pre-writing scenarios, there just would have been no real way of knowing about it, except perhaps the inner feeling that something about the reflection wasn’t totally right, which would have come intuitively. In other words, this burgeoning of inner appearance-centric insecurity, would well represent the early meeps and coos of the social ego coming into its own. Those who took significant note of this feeling, and regularly applied this extra discernment to themselves and their doings, became increasingly self aware. In an active ecosystem where you and your party survive using enhanced discernment as the primary strategy in both hunting, gathering, and rudimentary homemaking applications, it stands to reason that increased and hyper self discernment would be, overall, an evolutionary superior trait. The man who knows his limits and is self critical of his role within the given circumstance and environment, stands more of a chance out on a prehistoric hunt than the man who recklessly showboats and expends energy with abandon. The woman who is hyper critical of the quality of her collection and work, what that quality means relative to her existence and her party, stands a better chance of surviving than one who lacked attention to detail and awareness of behavior. In both cases, the cliché applies here to prehistoric humanity; the wisest individuals have the best chance of survival, and the best chance of mating. We all know how evolution works, so the thought exercise basically completes itself when you apply this fractal structure to the role ego plays in human evolution in particular. In so many notable ways, enhanced ego equals survival, and enriched survival, in the case of humans, equals advanced technological and social innovation. Like I’ve pleaded, I’m no scientist, I’m not saying this sentiment is indisputable fact, but I do believe hindsight sort of speaks for itself in this case. Again, I always appreciate hearing counterpoints to these claims of mine, and having debates and discussions! That’s the main reason I record them.
I think many people would argue or accept that written language is one of the most important aspects of human social development. At the least, complex standard writing systems are something that are obviously and inexplicably unique to our species. Other animals have unique specialties and high socialization levels; other animals drink still water and stare themselves in the face, and while I can’t definitively say whether they have inner monologues or egos of some kind or not, it is obvious that other animals simply do not draw and write to convey complex information in the way humans do. My initial thought is that this is because humans are unique in having complex information worth sharing. Humanity has a penchant for charming symbolism with the veil of ego that is entirely unique to us, that results in the psychological and subconscious micro levels of existence, which manifests broadly as ‘civilized and ethically correct behaviors’, which for my intents and purposes signifies advanced and nuanced social apparatuses only found in human kind. Survival by itself is simple. You just do it. Thriving requires finesse, and finesse requires troubleshooting, and that requires an intergenerational and communicative social element. In order to facilitate a proper communicative execution, all parties contributing require a unique and self developed understanding of themselves relative to the environment and the given subject being discussed. Otherwise, the dialogues to follow would be unfruitful and empty. These collaborative and egocentric discussions on solutions to events and issues that pose a threat to safety or normalcy is how human beings infuse their world with the individual egos of those involved, and therefore becoming a sort of collective ego force that is exerted upon the environment through further symbolic and effective means such as environmental and social manipulation and incremental improvements in architecture and technology, and of course the social processes that would allow solutions to come to fruition. The fruits of these discussions were sometimes so valuable that someone likely figured there ought to be a way to record them for posterity or reference, and there you have it. Symbols came first, then came the languages not long after… comparatively. Knowing the importance of reflections and mirror-like surfaces in the development of early egocentrism, imagine the relative shock and awe when a given individual or group discovered that their careful symbols and writings appeared backward, all but unintelligible, when viewed upon these sacred reflections. The reactions to this discovery were surely varied, but this compounding revelation had to have to been noted in each case as something significant. The way I see it, this pattern of mirrors invoking ego reactions within the human brain, over time triggering such profound physical manifestations as written symbols and languages, and then these resulting symbols not being compatible with reflection, is representative of overt and intense social structures that are ego based and not nature based, being possible overall, but ultimately unsustainable and incompatible with the realities of natural cycles.
However, through properly balanced ego applications, these two facets of existence, ego and environment, can be combined to create holistic applications that allow for the best of both components to shine and sustain adequately. When it comes to the human egocentric playstyle, there is a simple set of expressive formulas. To survive, see yourself in everything (the basis of empathetic nature id energy). To thrive beyond your means, see yourself in that which appears to share your goals, and attack, avoid, or appeal as necessary (the basis of sympathetic (or sometimes a-sympathetic) social superego energy). To excel sustainably, be actively aware of how and on what levels you as a free entity may go about balancing these two extreme scapes (the basis of combinative ego energy). I know there are countless more variable connections that could be made to support or counter this particular view I have established, but for the sake of the exercise, let’s assume this is the case: writing, art, language, and other notable social and technological advancements made individually or communally, incrementally or suddenly by humanity at large are all reflective manifestations of ongoing, ever increasing mixing of hyper awareness of both fluid and static reality and potent ego input.
Tune in next time for real reason anyone gives a fuck, I’d imagine, the esoteric connections via Tarot. I thought long and hard about what specifically to analyze for this particular piece. To explain the concepts of Empress, Palladian, and Hermetic magic, I used the imagery from the Empress, the Magician, and the Devil, respectively. For the id, superego, and the ego, I’ll be looking at the Moon, Strength and The High Priestess to represent id, the Chariot, the Hermit, and Death to represent superego, and the Lovers, Justice, and Temperance to cross reference the social level of combinative ego magic applications with the less dynamic socio-psychological elements of ongoing ego development. At the time of publishing part one here, I am about a fourth of the way done with the tarot analysis, so expect it shortly. I was going to publish them as a single entry, but fuck, it was looking like it might hit 20,000 words, and that’s just excessive, even for me, thus parts one and two were born. SPEAKING OF! I am excited to announce that Squeaky Table will be going podcast here soon. I am already writing episode one and I will be looking for guests as well! The blog is staying, obviously, but I just thought it’d be fun to expand my horizons!